I think this diary is good for me since I have been very motivated to make entrys. I take a 2 hour bus every day, and normally I just listen to music and waste away in my bus seat, but right now i'm typing this from said bus, and using my hotspot so I can update the website. IDK why but it feels amazing to have made a thing, that i'm proud of, like this is MY website that I coded!! (with lots of time spent googling)
Before making this website I had already done some webdev via learning tools like GROK that I used in year 10 computing, tbh I really liked using GROK, the little bit of learning then instant practical use which made the dopamine FLOW. This website gives a similar feeling, coding it is barley programming but it's so nice making it work, adding functionality, making it "pretty"
I normally don't like typing anything on the bus, I always have an anxitey that somebody is watching, it fucking eats me up inside, but still, the way this website makes me feel is securing, i'm just kind of vibing and typing my thoughts. Also I should have thought about this earlier but this is just deadass a blog, like I call it a digital diary because its cool, but this is deadass just a diary lmao
Living in Australia feels so weird, it's an amazing country, I love it, but it has this empty feeling, maybe it's because I have never left Australia but other countries seem to have like culture. I'm not the most social, but like, Australia is in a weird spot of being so new that culture varies on family not being in Australia, like it's a harsh way of saying it but like, Australia really doesn't have a culture, I would say the culture changes area by area, like Port Melboune is a glorified gated community full of old minorly racist white people, then theres Box Hill, which is like the centre of the asian community in Melboune, but Australia itself I don't think can define itself as much.
Sorry for the massive rant but yeah, I can't wait to leave Australia, my main places I wanna try living in is like, California, Germany, or like China. The only reason I say California is because I know people there, but with the other two, I just really like the languages, they're really fun to learn so they are good options.
I think i'm going to cut this entry here, I hope the pattern of these getting longer and longer doesn't continue, but then again even now I have 20 more minutes of this bus ride. Oki doki have a wonderful day you doofus!!
-love
DB
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